Graduation

nope, it's not my graduation (i hope it is) apparently it's my friends graduation back in Jakarta. Yeah i'm finally home! it's so good to finally back here in jakarta. So, my friends finally finished their school year and had their graduation ceremony yesterday. It was a bittersweet for them because they have to go on their separate ways and they couldn't meet often now. No more fieldtrip, no more joking around in class or skipping class together.

Frankly, I am sad too. I mean, wow, we're growing up! but, the more sad part here is that I don't have the chance to feel what it's like to spent my very last time in highschool with my friends. As you can see, I skipped grade 12 and transfered to Perth. Since then, I miss all the fun and I miss experiencing the bittersweet feelings I get around my friends.

On graduation day, I saw many students wearing their togas and they looked proud, happy and sad as well. it was a mix feeling for them, I don't know how to put in words but i guess that's how they felt. and when I watched them in the back row, i met my highschool teacher who taught me last year, and as we talked, she said something that hit me, "You should be up there with your friends!" I hope Miss, i really do. I really want to wear the togas and feel what they are feeling rigth now, and cry together and hug our homeroom teacher for the last time and listening to the teacher's last speech, well i did listen but i don't feel presence in it. even though this feeling is just for a while, but at least i can experience it and share it with my future children? err.. well, i just want to be with them in a very last moment.

i know, i know, I shouldn't be like that. I should feel proud as well since I have the chance to go to Perth and not everyone can have the chance like I'm having right now.

my dear friends, you guys are in my prayer and I hope God bless every paths you take and never look back but always go forward. and remember to reach your dream as high as you can.

cheers :)